Wednesday, October 1, 2008

The True Dark Side and some honest confessions

Got paid yesterday. Got a 3% "cost of living" raise. You know what that works out to? Like $25 a month. Somehow this summer I got off track, got behind on some stuff, and now, I'm behind. There are definitely times when I hate being a teacher. I listen to the news, get stressed about money, and being a teacher just makes it worse. I have already cut up my credit cards, last December, and I am in credit counseling, but I just got a letter that the company I am with is giving my account to some other company. This is fine, since I never heard that much from company 1 anyway, but still. There are times when$500 or $600 would make a huge difference in my life and allow me to get just far enough ahead that I would be back on track and wouldn't spend every month stressed out and nauseated every time I open my purse, or get in the car, or turn on a freaking light.

I am already working extra games (overtime) 2-3 times a week, I haven't gone clothes shopping in almost 10 months, and of course, none of my clothes really fit any more...and not in the good way. I long for someone to give me a winning lottery ticket, which I would generously split with them, and then pay off things, in this order:

my credit cards
my car
my computer
my college loan
my parents

I would have no trouble making ends meet, and even being able to travel and actually invest money (....well, at this point, maybe "investing" and "pouring money down the drain" are somewhat synonymous, but still...) if I had these things taken care of, but no. I know that I dug my own holes and that this is my own responsibility, and I am not looking for a handout, just some help and a listening ear.

And maybe a rich, sickly, doting uncle.

Thanks for listening.


Colleen said...

Don't you just want to sell shirts for "a good cause" at school because you know people would buy them. I don't know how it works up in your neck of the woods, but it is approaching craft show season here. Can you do that on a Saturday?

Bethany Haile Photography said...

Okay..I totally feel you on this one! Yikes....single incomes can make life, well suck! Buying groceries and gas on credit just stinks!! Maybe the new president will fix least that is what everyone else seems to think. (Cuz you know, the president controls the value of the american dollar!) ;)